The hardest part is letting go. Although not legally married we are just 2 months shy of our 9 year anniversary. I really tried throughout this adult want orgasm past year to make things work even though our relationship was crumbling before my very eyes. I had so much anger in my heart towards him but I was still able to "put out" for his sake. I can't even do that now. It hurts because I him so much as a person. I guess if attraction isn't there it just isn't there and I need to accept that. But on top of that, I still have a host of anger resentment towards him. I want to get rid of those feelings. Hard part is, financially, we need to live together. I just can't pretend like everything is all good anymore. I told him last night that I don't think we can be together anymore. He agreed. We held hands fell asleep. This is so depressing. Even though we've tried and I don't want to be with him anymore it still hurts soooo bad. It hurts just thinking that his family resent me, I them so much. My whole family loves him a lot. I still him, just not in that way. This is going to be so difficult for me but I know we can no longer be. We've changed so much since high school. Its so hard letting go